Just close your eyes...

I don't know what it is about this song, but I am in awe over it... the sound, the words, it just captures me... 

"Safe & Sound"
(feat. The Civil Wars)

I remember tears streaming down your face
When I said, "I'll never let you go"
When all those shadows almost killed your light
I remember you said, "Don't leave me here alone"
But all that's dead and gone and passed tonight

Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound

Don't you dare look out your window darling
Everything's on fire
The war outside our door keeps raging on
Hold onto this lullaby
Even when the music's gone
Gone

Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound

Oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh.
Oh, oh, oh, oh. [x2]

Just close your eyes
You'll be alright
Come morning light,
You and I'll be safe and sound...

Oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh oh oh. [x7]

Life's all about moments of impact.

Life's all about moments of impact, and how they change our lives forever. But what if one day you could no longer remember any of them?

-Leo "The Vow"

Life is so precious. The people in your life are even more precious. I feel like this, as I am just as guilty,  is taken for granted every single day. When someone you love is taken from you-- it's something no one can explain. Family, friends, the people that we spend our days talking to, hanging out with, weaving into our memories, these relationships are so valuable. The last 7 months have been weird since my dad passed. Days, even weeks, that I don't even remember. My brain and heart were in a state of shock as the doctors I was seeing would say. Going to a counselor every Wednesday to sort out the pieces. My heart was shattered, and I thought I would never fully recover from it. I mean let's face the fact that I WON'T every fully recover from it, but my heart will learn to cope as the pain starts to diminish. This June will be 12 years since I moved from Visalia to Hollister, and then continued my life everywhere else but home over the years- and there are times that I wonder, how different my life would be/would have been had I moved back sooner or never left when I did. It's not to say I regret anything in these last 12 years, but it makes me wonder... June 8th 2000 was the last day of 7th grade, and my last night in Visalia. That very next Friday my stuff was packed up and moved to Hollister, CA even before my soon to be best friends had even finished their 7th grade year. I have made some of the most amazing friends over the years, and also keeping a couple of best friends from my childhood... Everything is about moments. Decisions. Ideas. & where we go with those that defines who we are and who we are going to be. I struggled with my dad over the last 10 years, not being home enough to see him. That's something that I will always have to live with, the moments that I didn't get to spend with him. It's taken me some time to move past that, as I am STILL working on it, and rather than focusing on the "what could have beens" or what "I didn't do" I focus on the good times... The memories... The things I loved the most! Time heals all wounds... I know he's smiling down on me, saying "Mija! You finally listened to your dad and moved back where you belong" lol I miss him so much daily.. okay.. I am done with my tangent.. Just needed to get it off my chest...


X's & O's.... Alesa

A New Year

2012... and all the craziest it may bring! It's barely February--Wait it's halfway through February and I feel like time is zoooooming by!! Drew is growing more and more everyday, sometimes I feel like I BLINK and he's grown! I wish I could slow down time! Being home in Visalia has been amazing... Other than the last 5 months of my pregnancy I haven't lived here in 12 years! It really is home to me.. I do miss little things about Arizona & Monterey... After all, I do have some pretty important family hanging out over there in the desert-- and some pretty amazing friends that have been through some crazy times with me! ;) I miss the beach in Monterey, and the friends I have there... July, August, & September were probably the hardest months I have ever, EVER been through and without the support that was there for me-- I would NOT have made it through... you guys know who you are, and I thank you with all of my heart... it's been 7 months now since my pops left us, and not a day goes by that I don't miss him terribly... some days are easier than others, sometimes I can't fight back the tears, other days I smile remembering little silly things my dad was famous for.... watermelon head ;) haha having my nieces, my brother, chad, my family and Drew around help a TON. And although separated by plenty of miles, the besties are constantly keeping tabs on me ;) I love you guys with all my heart... okay, so now I need to get back to school work- procrastination at it's finest! (too bad I couldn't get paid to procrastinate!) hehehe

Drew & Kylie (Kylie's 3rd Birthday!) & Drewbee & I @ Pebble Beach December 2011

 

Drewbee, Chad & I! Saints vs Niners January 2012!

Love & miss you Daddy... XoXo