Life's all about moments of impact.

Life's all about moments of impact, and how they change our lives forever. But what if one day you could no longer remember any of them?

-Leo "The Vow"

Life is so precious. The people in your life are even more precious. I feel like this, as I am just as guilty,  is taken for granted every single day. When someone you love is taken from you-- it's something no one can explain. Family, friends, the people that we spend our days talking to, hanging out with, weaving into our memories, these relationships are so valuable. The last 7 months have been weird since my dad passed. Days, even weeks, that I don't even remember. My brain and heart were in a state of shock as the doctors I was seeing would say. Going to a counselor every Wednesday to sort out the pieces. My heart was shattered, and I thought I would never fully recover from it. I mean let's face the fact that I WON'T every fully recover from it, but my heart will learn to cope as the pain starts to diminish. This June will be 12 years since I moved from Visalia to Hollister, and then continued my life everywhere else but home over the years- and there are times that I wonder, how different my life would be/would have been had I moved back sooner or never left when I did. It's not to say I regret anything in these last 12 years, but it makes me wonder... June 8th 2000 was the last day of 7th grade, and my last night in Visalia. That very next Friday my stuff was packed up and moved to Hollister, CA even before my soon to be best friends had even finished their 7th grade year. I have made some of the most amazing friends over the years, and also keeping a couple of best friends from my childhood... Everything is about moments. Decisions. Ideas. & where we go with those that defines who we are and who we are going to be. I struggled with my dad over the last 10 years, not being home enough to see him. That's something that I will always have to live with, the moments that I didn't get to spend with him. It's taken me some time to move past that, as I am STILL working on it, and rather than focusing on the "what could have beens" or what "I didn't do" I focus on the good times... The memories... The things I loved the most! Time heals all wounds... I know he's smiling down on me, saying "Mija! You finally listened to your dad and moved back where you belong" lol I miss him so much daily.. okay.. I am done with my tangent.. Just needed to get it off my chest...


X's & O's.... Alesa